I railed against the Father most of my life, came to study occult literature a little bit in my twenties, but found it starving for Truth, and essentially a relativistic practice of self delusion.
For instance, masturbating on sigils: any man who spills his seed in exchange for a gift of the world has symbolically offered life for death, continuance for transiency. That is what it is before man attaches his theories upon it, for life is of the seed and the seed lives on, but a new job or a corvette are mere place holders, temporary pleasures/benefits.
The belief that "nothing is true" is also a theory of man, which conveniently allows for him to make theory upon theory upon theory thereafter, since "nothing is true."
The "occult" attracted me because I sought knowledge, and all I found were people seeking "things" or worldly power. It wasn't until my studies came to classical history that I began to figure out what I was after, and its always related to that which we initially rebelled against in childhood.
The damn church. My hate of it has only grown, though I know my Father is real and his laws self evident, his history is real and Jews are certainly not who they claim to be. In fact, religion had never much to do with scripture, because religion is pagan idolatry that is clearly described in the "bible."
When a man asks, "if there was a God almighty he would never let us suffer like this, right?" What he is doing is imagining a jute-box God that is at our beck and call, rather than a stern judge, fount of justice and wisdom, without which there's be no order in creation.
All civilization began with an adherence to the spirit of the ten commandments, whether they called them that or not. A study of Sparta from classical primary texts proves it of them, the roman republic as well. Neither were "pagan" for both honored the Father (Zeus or Jove) by practicing his laws. Race mixing, usury, graven idols were diminished, whereas the rise of empires always reversed the humble beginnings and brought ruin to centuries of prosperity. Expanded borders, multiculturalism, and gawdy temples and statues are hallmarks of Babylon.
I expect nothing from this post, but I posted in here years back, and on the old MySpace occult forums, and I had a memory flashback of those days, and the irony that I used to openly slam Christianity on a regular basis.
I could never seperate the Christ from church, and thus had no idea what I was rebelling against. And judeo Christians worship the devil, while occultists worship....well anything as long as its not the Father.
I find that interesting.
Edited by thebard, 17 May 2017 - 11:34 PM.