Hey guys, want really sure where to put this but this seems as good as any.
I have been meditating for abut 5 years now. 3 years ago it got more seious, then a year ago I decided I wanted to actually train properly.
My main guides for this were Swami Vivekananda with his "Raja Yoga" which is excellant, and some of Crowleys notes of Mysticism.
A week ago I achieved my first Dhyana.
I am now having trouble trying to justify anything in my everyday regular life.
I am in my second year of university, studying geology, I have friends I love and life is great. Suddenly everything just seems so fucking irrelevant. I have trouble even justifying why Im going to my courses, I still love my friends and all but still.
All I want to do is reach that place again.
any advice?
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Posted 19 November 2011 - 09:42 PM
You have successfully detected one of the first traps. Mind the gap!
My advice- go get drunk with your friends or watch a silly movie. Dive back into maya for a minute. You are right to think what you did was cool as hell. But put it in perspective.
This could be wisdom you've achieved, and it could be another illusion. The difference is what place you assign it, whether it is appropriate or not.
Quick question, does the phrase "abandoning regular every day life to reach that place again" remind you of your practice or the movie Trainspotting? Have you ever met someone so in love with meditative achievement they had managed to become a completely self assured, completely self involved twat? Mind you don't find him in the mirror.
Learn again to appreciate all these things you are now so far above- you look at them with the eyes of an eagle at the moment, and they do seem tiny and insignificant. Just like the eagle does from the ground, see?
My advice- go get drunk with your friends or watch a silly movie. Dive back into maya for a minute. You are right to think what you did was cool as hell. But put it in perspective.
This could be wisdom you've achieved, and it could be another illusion. The difference is what place you assign it, whether it is appropriate or not.
Quick question, does the phrase "abandoning regular every day life to reach that place again" remind you of your practice or the movie Trainspotting? Have you ever met someone so in love with meditative achievement they had managed to become a completely self assured, completely self involved twat? Mind you don't find him in the mirror.
Learn again to appreciate all these things you are now so far above- you look at them with the eyes of an eagle at the moment, and they do seem tiny and insignificant. Just like the eagle does from the ground, see?
This is a postcard sent from the dining room of the HMS Russel's Teapot. Wish you were here- the band is spot on tonight, and we're having "all the way down" turtle soup!
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Posted 20 November 2011 - 01:38 AM
Thanks for replying 
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Yeah I have been feeling in a way even more connected to my close friends since the experience and have watched movies, got as drunk as I can get these days (for some reason half a bottle of whiskey just doesn't floor me these days, despite me not really using alcohol very much at all anymore, could be due a comparatively higher metabolism), and various other things. I understand what you mean; it’s what I’ve been thinking too. I’m still pushing with my training though, and actually had another breakthrough about 5 hours ago.
In addition to this I have recently begun studying the Qabalah, even from my limited understanding of it, the knowledge is helping me ground and reintegrate back to where I had previously been in terms of drive etc. In fact the world is just amazing at the moment.
Thanks again,
Trilobite.
.Yeah I have been feeling in a way even more connected to my close friends since the experience and have watched movies, got as drunk as I can get these days (for some reason half a bottle of whiskey just doesn't floor me these days, despite me not really using alcohol very much at all anymore, could be due a comparatively higher metabolism), and various other things. I understand what you mean; it’s what I’ve been thinking too. I’m still pushing with my training though, and actually had another breakthrough about 5 hours ago
.In addition to this I have recently begun studying the Qabalah, even from my limited understanding of it, the knowledge is helping me ground and reintegrate back to where I had previously been in terms of drive etc. In fact the world is just amazing at the moment.
Thanks again,
Trilobite.
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