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[cirka09]

They don't frighten me. But over the past several years I've had a recurring dream; actually a recurring location within dreams, that involve porcelain dolls. So I'm thinking there might be something to them symbolically.

This has only happened to me a few times in my life. It started some time within the past 9 years. There is a room that pops up every now and then. It doesn't matter what the dream is about at first. This room can appear at any time and it always looks the same. The first time I came across this room, I was walking down an empty hallway. The most recent time it showed up, I was entering an old, run-down, building several stories tall and made of cement.

I never have a choice of entering the room. Once I know it's there... I"m in it... although there is a small fraction of time that I stand outside it looking in knowing exactly whats going to happen once I'm inside. It's always well lit. The color tone is the same as incandescent lighting, soft yellow/white. The lighting doesn't fit the decor. The room is very Victorian and very lavishly decorated. An empty chair with a throw blanket, a small table, possibly a lamp. The main detail that always pops out to me are the walls. They are completely covered with porcelain dolls. The room and everything in it is clean and looks well taken care of. Once I'm inside the room, things go downhill quickly. An overwhelming sense of dread comes over me. The room feels heavy. As if the dread has coalesced and permeates every inch of the area inside. I get the intense feeling that I need to leave, but I cannot. It's not like being scared stiff, I could move if I would just do so, but I don't. There's nothing else in the room, no person, or entity that I can sense. It's as if the room itself is alive. Nothing moves, the dolls aren't looking at me. I don't even feel like the room wants to harm me. But I know I have to leave... and the only way to do that is to wake myself up. The experience in this room is always, exactly, the same. When the feeling of dread reaches a critical point, I begin to become conscious. I have to deliberately pull myself out of the sleeping state. And that's what it feels like, pulling myself back through an extremely thick liquid. When I begin to regain conscious awareness of my body, I can hear my breathing, it's deep and fast. It's my breathing that finally allows me to wake. I never wake startled, like a normal nightmare would startle someone awake. I just wake up. Open my eyes and start to breath normally. After that, I'll lay in bed for a few minutes, close my eyes, and fall back asleep. I usually don't dream for the rest of the night.

I've never had bits and pieces of this room appear in any other dreams. It's either there in its entirety, or it isn't. So I don't know what this room might be. Or what the contents of the room might mean. I'm wondering if anyone else has had similar experiences or knows anything about the symbolism because none of it makes sense to me. I can usually pick up on different symbols within normal dreams and trace them back to the cause. But not this.

[voidgazing]

It might be that you were actually in that room at some point (probably very young) and it skeeved you out.

[cirka09]

Lol, possibly. No one in my family collects porcelain dolls.

[VIRAL]

OK, this is going to piss Hitler off, but there is a definite meaning to the term "Porcelain Doll." "Doll" is a term for a Human Being who is so often wronged by others that people are very apt to use 'Karma,' or more precisely the person in question's 'Karma,' as an excuse for... all kinds of entertaining things. A doll is a tool, a toy to keep unruly kids occupied, one way or the other.

"Porcelain" is a word used to mean fragile or precious.

A Porcelain Doll is a person used as a reason to destroy whomever you can blame for whatever today's annoyance is, a Poster Child of vengeance and abuses. In a more vicarious way, those who seek to harm others (usually for the thrill/release) are also Porcelain Dolls, in that they either create them or honor them (with violence of any kind).

The word "yeah" is used to denote vicariousness. As in "Yeah, that's a victim." The sentence would mean "That (you/the subject) produces victims" or "That (you/the subject) avenges victims." Or both :ninja:

Oddly enough, this pst appeared just before the Porcelain Dolls concert here in Colorado today. Credit where credit is due, these guys know how it is. And they obviously know how to RAWK!!!

http://www.reverbnat.../porcelaindolls
http://www.myspace.com/mrmime55

[cirka09]

I like Colorado. Beautiful state.

I don't use people, or intentionally seek to harm them. I do seem to have an unfortunate amount of bad luck though. Occasionally I'll find out that someone I know has tried to use me as a scapegoat. But the times this room has appeared, my life has been fairly normal. The bad luck I have usually involves something I want. Mainly relationships. Terrible luck with those lol. I've thought a few times in the past that I might be cursed. Or that being unable to be in a long term relationship is punishment for a past life (not sure I subscribe to the belief in past lives). Maybe I was a womanizer. If I, or my 'Karma' is being used as an excuse for whatever, I certainly don't want that to continue.

[VIRAL]

Being the doll gets old, and it can get really, really old. It looks as if some dude(s) are either inviting you to "play" with them (become their doll) or are warning you about becoming a malicious (porcelain) doll like myself and many others.

You need scars to 'join the club,' either that or... somebody's 'vested interests.' :pirate:

[cirka09]

I'm a heterosexual male, so I'd have to go with the warning not to become malicious. I need to sit and think on this. Maybe I can find a way to force the room to appear and work with it on my terms instead of the other way around.

[Waterspirit]

Have you considered that this room may actually exist somewhere in the "dream world"? Have you looked much into conscious dreaming, astral travel, etc....perhaps you have some unfinished business with this room.

[Non-euclidean master]

Have you seen any Chucky movies? (child's play, stuff like that?) Chucky movies would explain the entire thing.

(edit: try watching movies about evil porcelain dolls so many times so that the next time you have the dream you just laugh)

Edited by Non-euclidean master, 21 February 2011 - 03:45 AM.
I needed to add something I forgot, and I had a typo in my previous edit

[cirka09]

I haven't looked into conscious dreaming, astral travel, etc. But I've thought about it. Id like to learn more about it because I do think I should go back to this room. It appears randomly and years apart so having some control over when I go there might be a good idea. Unless it kills me in the process lol.

[8people]

Porcelain dolls used to be made in the image of a living child, often with the childs' hair as a memento. Now they are simply collectables really.

Have you looked into the option of either meditation or self hypnosis to explore the room further? From dreams it's often the key elements that stick in the waking mind, by revisiting in a more concsious state there may be insignificant elements that help explain the room further, any risk is also minimalised as you are in full control of your mental and physical state.

If there is anything to explore further then astral travel or dreamwalking may be a step beyond that

[VIRAL]

Oh yeah, and "Dude" is a term that (to my knowledge) just translates to "Dreamwright." Y'know, like a playwright of dreams, a being who writes them. Another term is "Hound" (THX Caliban) and "Dog," although dogs can be other kinds of people and things, usually just regular dogs too.

I'm stuck single, beginning to like it. But I keep all different kinds of company both awake and asleep. For instance, I went to a C.O.F. concert with the wrong company on Friday (also drank the wrong booze), the night was a total (antagonizing) trip. But... The next morning some dude appearing as Chev Chelios (from Crank: High Voltage) came and energy-blasted my heart, my etheric body perked up like watered houseplant and the rest of that day was decidedly un-groggy. Yum!
http://img.blogs.yah...27_0?1252244059


But your hounds shouldn't be using immobilizers without a damn good reason IMHO. Unless they're total amateurs, which would explain it.

Eat melon before sleep. You will have lucid dreams (it's scientifically proven).

Edited by VIRAL, 21 February 2011 - 08:41 PM.

[cirka09]

I need to go buy some melons. I like melons.

Looks like I've got some reading to do. Amazon here I come!